And I am awake.
What the heck?!?
I went to bed at 10pm. Chase came in at 11pm with growing pains. He fell back asleep (with said painful leg in my side). Macy came in at 11:45pm for something to drink. I came downstairs for said sippy cup. I noticed the Doritos on top of the refrigerator. They looked so tempting. I took said sippy cup upstairs to said 3 year old who already had fallen back asleep (of course). I returned for the Doritos. And here I am. Checking blogs at midnight with a bag of Doritos. This can't be .... what do they call it ..... healthy behavior?!?
Anyhow.
I am exhausted actually but I lay down and my mind races around all of the things that I should be doing rather than laying in bed! This has been the norm lately, I think I need to get an over-the-counter medication to help me go to sleep. Do we have any suggestions? Czarina, am I allowed to do this? What do we think? I am on anxiety meds so I dont actually feel like I am feeling anxious.... ;) but....clearly, I am. Tonight, I literally lay there praying that God would just clear my mind so I could rest. And I believe that He did.
I swear that as I am writing this, I feel the Holy Spirit & realize that just maybe God has a lesson for me. (Imagine that) I feel like I need to clear my mind to allow Him to do work in my life that I am too busy to allow right now.
I get so busy. I am even busy with things that I feel that I am being called to do. I have always felt that I thrive through being busy. But....here is the key word in all of those sentences that is off: {I} {I} thrive through being busy. Does God thrive through me being busy? Maybe not. I am going to continue praying about this and see what else there is to all of this.
I had no intention of getting into this topic here tonight. I truly just wanted to make fun of myself for being awake at 12am eating a bag of chips. I guess, we never know the plans He has in store for us.
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I am awake with you except I am not eating Doritos...lol
I have got to go to bed. :)
I believe the best medicine is prayer. Hmmm - that wasn't in any text book I read but I do believe God is a much better healer than any doc.
As for the mind racing - did you have caffeine or anything different with your dinner or after dinner?
What are your anxiety meds? Do you take them regularly? Did you take anything else (any OTC med) with your anxiety meds?
Don't just take any OTC med for your inability to sleep. Your anxiety meds may already have some ingredients that cause your body and all your body systems to "slow down." You add in another medicine with the same ability - then your body could really slow down - meaning everything - like your breathing, heart rate....hmmm - those aren't good things.
So - tell me what you did differently the past few days. Shut off the TV, shut off the computer, get a routine down before bedtime. Make sure your bedroom is a haven for sleep - no work on the nightstand, sheets you love sleeping in, etc. Don't work or watch TV from bed - BED should be for sleeping and ______________.
Ok - call me or email me if you need anything!
I really, relate to the business and mind racing part. I'm often laying in bed asking God to clear my head to I can even hear Him.
Through your post, it sounds like you're already hearing His spirit..."Does God thrive through my being busy?"
Who knew all that would come at midnight with some Doritos!?! ;)
Oh, the elusive sleep. I remember sleep. Let's see...back in 1995 or so. Do EVERYTHING you can to get a restful night. Hot bath, clean sheets, cool room, no TV, etc. If you start taking something, you can get a whole other set of problems when you try to wean off the sleep meds.
Sleepless nights w/ a bag of Doritos - been there! I haven't slept well for a few weeks, since my dad passed away. I just lay there thinking and worrying and debating w/ myself - the cycle is endless! I also feel like I need to just calm my mind so I can sleep.
Have you tried yoga? That can be very relaxing and not interfer w/ your meds.
It is so hard to find a balance between doing too little and too much...especially if you feel called!
Yum...Doritos sound good right about now :)
I can't wait to see where God leads you...all because of not being able to sleep!
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